Osho:-I have been working with many, many people, and sometimes
they turn when the right moment was going to be; exactly before that moment they
turn away. And the mind is cunning enough; it can philosophize, it can say why
you have turned away. Exactly at the moment when something was going to happen,
you can turn away.
There is more possibility for you to turn away
from that moment than from any other moment; it is unfortunate but it happens.
You wait and wait and wait, and then the moment is nearing where the
evaporating point can be reached, and suddenly you turn away. To resist that
turning is very difficult. It is just like death reaching nearer, nearer,
nearer, and seeing the abyss you turn away and run as fast as you can.
Remain alert. This misfortune happens to
seekers; it can happen to you. Buddha passed through a village many times in
his forty years of traveling.
One man used to come; he would listen for a few
minutes then get up and go away. And this had become a habit; he never listened
to Buddha for the whole time Buddha was speaking. He would come, that was
certain, and whenever Buddha would come to the town he would wait for that man.
He would come, that was certain. He would sit and for a few minutes he would listen, then, respectfully
bowing down to Buddha, he would go away.
Ananda once asked that man, “Why do you do
The man said, “Sometimes this is the peak hour
for my business, but I must come just to pay my respects; that’s why I come.
But my shop is open and customers are there, and they will not wait.
Enlightenment can wait; next time I will hear.” It happened again and again.
The day Buddha died he was near the village,
and before his death he said to Ananda, “That man has not come. This is
exceptional — he never missed. He always missed in a sense but he never missed.
He has always come, now he has not come.”
Then Buddha asked his disciples, “Do you have anything to ask — because
soon I will enter into the final Samadhi, the final ecstasy, and then I will
not be able to come back and answer you.”
They started weeping and crying but there was
no question. And Ananda said, “We have asked everything, you have answered everything,
and there is nothing. Our minds are blank just thinking that you are going to
Buddha asked thrice, again and again. There was
no question so he went behind the tree and closed his eyes, just to dissolve
into the infinite, to leave the body, and then suddenly the man came. He
started fighting with the monks and said, “I must see him. This is the last
time; I will not be able to see him again. For forty years I have been missing
and I have a question to ask. I have never been able to ask it before because
sometimes there was a marriage in my family, sometimes business was at a peak,
sometimes I was ill or my wife was ill, and sometimes there were relatives
staying. I always missed but now don’t prevent me.”
The disciples said, “It is not possible; now he
Buddha came out from his ecstasy, from his
final Samadhi. He came in front of the tree and he said, “Don’t prevent that
man. He may have been foolish, he may have missed because of his ignorance, but
I cannot be hard on him. I am still alive so let him come. No one should say
that Buddha was alive and a man who had come begging was sent back.” Buddha
said, “What have you come to ask?”
The man had forgotten the question. He said, “When I came, I knew, but
now I can’t remember. Next time I see you I will bring the question.” … And
there was going to be no next time. Buddha died that day, and that man
must be wandering somewhere on this or some other earth, seeking a man who can
answer his question. That man missed Buddha continuously for forty years.
You can miss me — always remember that
possibility. But it will be because of you, not because of me; I am always
ready. Whenever you are ready I will hit you, but a deep surrender is needed;
before that nothing can be done. You have to die, die as you are, so that which
you really are can be born out of you. You have to die as an appearance so that
the real can be born. You have to die on the periphery, so that the center
evolves and comes out in its luminousness, in its full perfection. All hits are
to destroy the seed so that the tree is born. Anything more?